this is not how it's suppose to be

i'm sorry. just by starting with an apology would at least calm you down. i really am sorry on what i've did/done. mistakes i've made, decisions that i've made which are really dumb and naive. i really wish that things would be better between us. i really hope that one day, things that are not possible will be possible. well, if you're asking how have i been? emotions up and down, happiness up and down. well during football MSSD, i scored my ever first goal in MSSD and i was really glad/delighted! after all those joy, i found out that my phone was missing. currently i'm "phone-less". i really do pray for an iphone4 though! (big smiley). well through all this ups and downs, i actually learned a very valuable lesson. even when i always say it but i never really live up to it. the lesson that i re-learned was Never Say Never. besides that, i learn too that friends who are really there for you when you're at your most down times are your really true friends who you can trust with all your heart and never having to worry bout anything. i would like to take this chance to thank my wonderful, magnificent buddy; Amsyar Hilman. you're really a bro to me. thanks man! after all that have been said and done, the feeling that i'm feeling(the emptiness, hole burning through my heart) was not it was suppose to be. i'm sorry for hurting you, making you have second thoughts bout me. well, i hope we could start fresh!
Cheerios!